unplanned/undetected repentance in shaving
whisker
whisker
whiskers
white backgrounded
on landing in basin
loosed cords
once binding
now freeing
lightening face
as light we can walk in
lightens soul
all straining to grow-
-abandoned
all that hid behind hair-
-exposed
all the manliness i mustered
squeezing it out my lip
through follicle-
-gone
bare face
bares inadequacies
i am boy again
simple and free
running
hindered not by lostness
found in tall grasses
i run
over smooth earth
bare and fallow
awaiting turning
my own skin
i will not break
i will not blood-let
flagellating asceticism
plunging that razor-spade
sadistic into soil
of self
but rather
look myself
nude faced
in the eye
and walk away
regretless
washed and shaved
posted by Matt @ 6:11 PM
11 Comments:
At 9/13/2006 6:50 PM,
Matt said…
i tried to grow a mustache last week. it was a failed attempt - whispy at best. i looked like some of my FFA friends from the 7th grade. (growing all the 'stache they could...it wasn't much...it wasn't manhood...but i respect that they went for it.)
i asked my roomate if he liked my 'stache. he said i looked like an adolescent trying to see if he could grow a mustache. that's essentially what i am. i actually found hair...in my armpits a couple of months back!!!
i discovered insecurity anew. i did not feel comfy, but rather, dirty with my pseudo-stache. i did not feel closer to manhood but rather junior high.
i guess my spiritual point is that God knows our hearts...and sometimes our hearts change before our minds, our mouths, or our emotions get the message. still, we often try to muster of repentance or sorrow just like i tried so hard to grow a mustache to prove my manhood.
maybe i was already a man.
maybe shaving rather than growing a burly (or not so burly) mustache was my acceptance of manhood.
you make the application.
the picture here is not in fact last week's mustache.
that picture was taken in 2003. all of my roomates decided to grow mustaches...mustachi...i don't know the plural...anyway...
i couldn't grow a mustache, so i shaved off my goatee, glued it on my face, and trimmed it up.
it didn't look too bad...
what do you think?
At 9/14/2006 4:23 PM,
Anonymous said…
I think that's hilarious. In about three years I think I'm going to have to start glueing hair from my face to my head... but maybe not. I actually think I'll embrace the baldness and come to grips with the fact that not only am I now a man, but I'm a senior citizen.
At 9/14/2006 10:56 PM,
Anonymous said…
I can relate.
I too am a failure when it comes to pogonotrophy. (How do you like that word?)
My mustache is sparse and my "goatee" usually has a bald part down the middle.
Alas my face is destined to be clean shaven or stupid looking.
Oh well.
At 9/15/2006 5:27 PM,
Vanessa Houk said…
gross. -vanessa
At 9/15/2006 7:22 PM,
Jerod said…
i like it! i like it! keep the 'stache!
At 9/16/2006 10:18 AM,
Anonymous said…
Some people weren't made to grow facial hair, and I think you were one of them. Accept it. I agree with Vanessa. Stay our favorite clean shaven baby-faced Matt. Thanks.
At 9/18/2006 4:50 AM,
Anonymous said…
Well- the word "creepy" actually came to my mind. No matter - I love you no matter what your face looks like or what body hair you decide to glue to it! :) Blessings - ginger
At 9/18/2006 8:40 PM,
Jerod said…
heed not the women! facial hair rulez!
At 9/20/2006 5:26 PM,
bev said…
oh dear ...
At 9/21/2006 2:49 PM,
Bethany said…
gluing things to your body is never the best idea...
i was just thinking about you friend. thanks again for coming to visit this summer, i had a picnic on that bridge again this week and thought of you.
hope we can hang out when i get back!
At 10/02/2006 5:39 PM,
faith said…
WHOA!!!!!!
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